Wish You Knew How Much I Wanted Your love
Dear Dad, I wish you knew how much I wanted your love.
Hearing your voice brings joy to my heart. I wish I could say these things to your face, but I’m not strong enough. I can’t trust you’ll react well. So I’m saying this right here sitting behind my computer. I hope my words will reach your heart and not your ears.
“I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection.” Sigmund Freud
Missing a Father’s Love
Miss the words “I love you.”
Wish the word abandon was a lie.
Miss being an innocent child, but I can’t wait to grow and spread my wings. I’m scared of being a teen. Most days, I don’t know what to do with myself.
Wish you here more often. Even when you’re here in person, you’re never here with me. Always busy, always tired, drinking, always irritated. Am I a burden? You act like I am.
Wanted your Love.
I wish you so much love yet I wish you nothing. It’s a strange feeling. You left me long before you left the house: left me alone and left me to others, left me to the streets, left me to “get what I deserve.” Hate you? Not at all. But my pain makes me so angry toward you. It was never fair, but never your fault. I couldn’t help it.
Yet I’m stronger because of it. I have my limits and only wish I knew better. Without the most important part of my life, I grew up faster and had to make do.
Wish you Knew
Daddy, life is empty. Though I feel cheated, I forgive you. I wish you would make an effort to understand. I’ve been so compliant, or at least, I’ve tried to be as compliant as my hurt would let me be. Tried, watched, cried, and wished so hard to escape.
I can’t blame you forever. That’s why I’m writing this letter: to let you in on a part of me I wish would die so I can live. One day, when you’re old, you will miss these moments. And, you’ll wonder where they’ve gone. When that happens, think back on this letter.
On my own
I’m finding my own way now, but it’s hard: the toughest thing I’ve ever had to do and I can’t imagine anything worse. So in a way, I’m grateful you gave me this experience. Only, I wish someone else ripped my heart out—not you. You’re my father. You were supposed to be here for me no matter what.
Love build a child self-esteem as a result, not having Parental love and acceptance can cause feelings of worthlessness in a young child
My father worked 2 full time jobs when I was growing up, so while he was still there – he really wasn’t.
This post really resonated with me because I lost my Dad to cancer five years ago. You absolutely always need your parents, and every daughter needs her Dad.
This is such a powerful letter, this is so sad for daughter.
Such a touching letter to your dad, I moved by you forgiveness. Pray for healing and comfort!
This is a very powerful letter. I can see the frustration and anger in the words. It’s so hard to let that go.
That’s pretty heavy. Most dads are never emotionally attached to their children and it has to stop. I’m sorry you had to go through life like this, I’m glad you’re done suffering. All the best to you.
This is such a touching letter. Sad and beautiful.
My daughters are so fortunate that they have a loving father that has always been there for them. It’s so important for a girl to grow up with that influence in her life.
I hope this letter has helped you to heal. I think great that you are able to forgive him.
That is deep. I too can feel the pain and anger in the words of this letter. The hurt. It is sad. It is hard to move on from this.
This letter is very poetic. It’s hauntingly beautiful and sad. There’s nothing harder than feeling abandon.
Strong words and powerful letter. Reminds me of what really matters.
The relationship between a father/daughter is so special. This is such a heartfelt post.
It must be so hard to have the physical presence of a father, and yet, it seems he is so far away and un-involved in your life. I wish this story did not have to end this way, but, as you said, it is a lesson.
Annemarie LeBlanc,It’s the hard lessons that teaches us!
I wish fathers knew what a huge impact they had on their kids especially their daughters. Many dads do not realize that kids just want them to be there, money or not
Marlene Carr, You are so right Kids do not want toys they want their Parents love!
Such a powerful letter to a father, in her letter, I felt her sadness, fear, and angry. Having parents are most important.
I always believed in writing letters to say those challenging things you wished you had said or did not have the opportunity. Thank you so much for sharing this example. 🙂
Such a touching letter to your dad.! Always remember that the word saying ” no man is an island” always you need your parents no matter what.
This is such a powerful, honest piece. Thank you for sharing it. I know many people will be able to relate to it.
I may be old enough, but I know I still need my parents. This is a beautiful and touching letter and I admire you for forgiving him.
Beautifully written and I can relate a litte. Great post!
I grew up without my father. Thank you for sharing this beautiful post.
i have at times felt guilty for having such an amazing father and having such a great relationship with him but thats just how it happens sometimes. i wish everyone had what i had but it just isn’t the case. this makes me so sad to read and makes me feel guilty all over again
Your “letter” is filled with such strong feeling. The emotion is palpable and I can relate to some of it. Where we come from and the parents we know can make such a huge impact on our lives.
awww this letter just makes me feel very fortunate and appreciate my father. you are such a strong woman for writing this and i hope youve gotten some closure from writing this.
I so feel your pain and I do understand. I would love to have my father back as he was taken from me way to early. He was caring and loving, my husband is the same with our children and grand-children. My son because of that makes a wonderful father. Our grand-children are the ones that suffer. They only see their father when and if he wants to see them. My husband their grandfather gives them the world in hopes that it will be enough. My prayer is they will open their eyes before too late and they grow up. Something it sounds like you all ready know about.
I understand your feelings and hope that sharing this letter helps you heal.
Abandon is a word I hate most. It makes me sad to think about being abandoned.
My Father passed away 5 years ago and I’m usually OK, then something comes up and the grief overwhelms me.
Even when I bought my car this month I kept thinking I wish he was here and could tell me what to do.
Joyce Brewer, The relationship between a father & daughter is a special one. Wish many fathers knew that!
Very toughing! Being a father is so much more than just creating a child. I wish we could fix this generational problem!
Stacie,I wish so too. If only they knew!
This is a powerful letter. It definitely resonates with me, too.
My father decided to not father. He was only in my life for a couple of years because my Mom made it happen. I have no memories of him or him being around. Fast forward 36 years and he lives 4hrs away and has zero parts of my life or my kids.
I’m so thankful my kids have such an amazing Dad. They will never know the pain that I’ve had to feel.
Mimi “MimiCuteLips” Green, Wow, Well if your father only knew how much he is missing out. Glad that your kids has a father that honor his responsiblities and love his children to want to be in their lives. Time heal all wound…thanks for your support.
Dads are so important to a girl, so very important. A lot of pain results from that relationship not being in tact. Congrats to you on making moves toward healing. God bless!
Antoinette, Yes, Dads are essential ingredient happiness in a young child life.
Kudos to you for opening up and sharing your story. I personally have a great experience with my father. I tell my step-daughter all the time how much she should appreciate her dad being there as much as he possibly can not living in the home with her, because so many girls, and women for that matter, wish they had a father who was actively involved in their lives. Now that she’s 19 she gets it a little more.
Jonna Scott-Blakes, Glad to hear that your relationship with your dads is Great! So many teens wish they had bond with their father.
I felt the pain in this letter. I hate your father abandoned you…I dont know how any parent can just do that with no after thought. You wrote this letter to release some of the pain and move on and its so good to see you are more mature about the situation even though its still hard.
Hmm! A word of advice to all fathers out there. We cannot meet all the desires of our children but we can at least make the basic sacrifice to give them the protection needed when we are around!
Sunday William, That’s the least a Father can do make the “basic sacrifice”. Maybe he should remain in contact with his child. Kids are not asking Parents to meet all their desires. They need you to show that you care. Toys are left in the store but a day or one hour with their “dad” is worth more than gold. Thanks for sharing your taught from a male it meant a lot to me.
Such a heartfelt letter to your Dad. Thankfully in the recent years my relationship with my Dad has been positive but we’re both Scorpios so have had many moments of disagreement through the years. This definitely hit home for me.
Kara (Kay’s Ways), I am so happy to here you and your “dad” is in a good place. Scorpion love to debate and they are determine. The disagreement..it’s the positive times you remember and cherish…So awesome.
I can not imagine this pain…my father has always been an amazing person, and has always been around and supportive. I agree that a father’s presence is beyond important in a child’s life.
Olivia, Glad to hear your Father still in your life. Its hard for single mothers. Fathers need to be active not just call on the phone. Thanks for your support.
Fathers are important. This was really deep and sentimental.
It’s great that you were able to express your feelings through this letter. I hope it brings you peace.
This is such a touching letter. How important it is to be able to express these emotions and thank you for sharing.